Week 33

Hello.  I can't believe I am at 34 weeks and how time is going by so fast!  This past week we had our second class which involved learning more about Cord Blood Banking and more about labor and delivery.  It has been interesting to learn all the different stages of birth however I will admit there are just somethings I did not want to know.  I do feel pretty overwhelmed after each class, but in the end it is better to be over prepared than no clue what is going on.  We have one last class this coming week and it has been the one class I am most looking forward too, it is the Newborn Class.  I am eager to learn about how to take care of our bp!  I do have experience of being around newborns, as I was there when my niece was born but that was over 7 years ago!  I also have had a lot of friends have babies recently who have given me great advice, but I know every baby is different and I want to know all the possible things to do!  I must admit, that is what scares me a bit more at the moment is how to care for a tiny human.  I again have been around them but this one will be extra special because she will be mine. She will be 100% my responsibility and depending all on me.  That is scary!
It also makes me think of something else on a different level.  As many of you know, I was adopted at the age of 2 days old, and I have been searching for my biological family with no avail.  This little bp I am having will be the first blood relative I will ever know.  That blows me away many times.  When I do sit and think about it in that way it almost brings me to my knees.  This little baby we have made together is truly going to have a piece of me in her.  I have never known anyone who will have my blood and DNA literally as a part of them.  Don't get me wrong I am very blessed and I have amazing parents who raised me who I am forever grateful for, it just has been painful growing up knowing that the people who made you are not part of your life and trying to understand why.
I am more at peace with it as an adult but it does make me think more of my biological mother and what it took for her to place a child for adoption.  It also makes me look at from my mother's perspective that she was not able to carry her own child and what it took for her to choose to raise someone else's child. All I do know is that it all was in God's hands and I would not be where I am today had those decisions not been made.

A side note, it was also a big weekend that it was ACL (big music festival here in Austin).  I have been every year since I have met my husband and this was the first year I did not go.  It felt weird not to be there but I knew in the end it would of been a mistake if I had went.  It is all outdoors (and dusty so I always get sick with my allergies), and the weather is so unpredictable rain/shine so I knew the logical decision was not to go.  I will admit it was a hard one to swallow, especially because a lot of our friends where there.  I remember dropping off my husband and getting a text from a friend right after that and I had a small cry.  I missed seeing my friends and hanging out with my husband.  I had a good cry and shook it off.  I know that was a small sacrifice to make and I don't regret, I just need to cry sometimes and move on :)

How Far Along? - 33 weeks  

Size of our BP - 4lbs! 

Maternity clothes - still looking for a comfy t-shirt! 

Gender - baby girl 

Sleep - cherish those couple of nights where I sleep completely thru the night!

Food cravings - egg & potato breakfast tacos (and a strawberry frosted donut on the side isn't too bad either!) 

What I miss - my feet not swelling for being on them for an hour, I mean come on I need to do stuff!  

Symptoms - heartburn, swollen feet/ankles/calves, braxton hicks contractions

Belly Button - still an innie and I am pretty determined to stay that way! Also can still see my toes!

Best Moment This Week - My best friend was in town so I got to hang out with her!  She has a little 7th month old girl and was also helping out with her nephew so I got to hang out with some cute little babies!  It was nice to see the babies at the age they are at (7months)!  I can see how much they have grown in 7 months and was amazed what little personalities they have already :)  I can't wait to see my little one's personality!!