Week 32

Week 32 has been a good week.  I actually got through it without being sick (knock on wood) and had an overall good OB visit.  I had a long talk with my doctor about my experiences while she was away. I made sure to make it very clear to her that I was not happy with my overall experience at Labor and Delivery.  I also made sure to let her know I am a first mom and I have no clue what to expect. so please don't put those demands on me.
Also speaking of not knowing what to expect, we met with a doula this week.  She was very nice overall and I am glad we met her.  We did have a couple of concerns with her, and some of her answers were not exactly what we wanted to hear.  For instance, she voiced that she had to maintain relationships with the hospital and the staff so she did not want to overstep.  I completely understand that but I did not want to hear about it.  I do not expect her to be ugly to anyone I just want to make sure she is going to be a strong advocate for baby and me.  I would not tolerate her getting ugly with our OB so I do hope that she can find the balance between being an advocate and being respectful to all involved.  We should know by the end of the week if we are going to go with her or not.
Another thing that happened this week is fear has crept in.  I started thinking about everything that could go wrong, and not just with baby and me but everything.  During the weekend, I guess that is when I have time most alone, I just notice my mind just tends to go there.  For instance, I had it in my head that what if something bad happened to my husband.  I could not shake that feeling all weekend.  I know that I need to have faith and be strong in it, however with all the pregnancy hormones going on inside of me it was hard to shake off those feelings.  I was proud of myself though for not giving into the hormones and calling my husband all day with my fears/worries.  It was not until I spoke to my mother-in-law days later, that it hit me how scared I was all weekend and had a good cry with her.
I am telling you these pregnancy hormones are no joke.  I feel that I can get them under control pretty well overall but I do have my days.  I will be happy to report that I have yet to go off on anyone, especially my loved ones, because those closest to you tend to hear it more.  I just feel like it is easier to cry at the little things and the feeling of being overwhelmed by emotions come easier as well.


Here are some pics of some cute stuff we got for our little bp recently: (can't wait to see her in them!)

How Far Along? - 32 weeks  

Size of our BP - just around 3 3/4 lbs & about 17 inches long!

Maternity clothes - wish they sold more comfy t-shirts  

Gender - baby girl 

Sleep - I think a successful night is when I don't wake up to take a bathroom break!

Food cravings - lately it has been spaghetti from Mandola's (if anyone wants to take me I will gladly go!)

What I miss - walking long walks.  

Symptoms - definitely feel heartburn in the evenings no matter what I eat but pretty mild.  

Belly Button - still an innie and I am pretty determined to stay that way! Also can still see my toes!

Best Moment This Week - having my parents in town this past weekend.  It actually went real well and it was nice to have someone here while my husband's work schedule has picked up considerably.  I hate being alone, especially for long periods of time.  My mom was a cleaning machine, and we were able to organize my closet a bit more (and by that I mean clean out the clutter to make room for baby stuff)!  

***DOCTOR UPDATE - I can officially go off the medication that was stopping the contractions!!  Mostly because I am technically at 33 weeks, but I will take it!  So happy to be off all medication :-)    ***